The cliff of Disaster

It has been a long while since I have blogged. Maybe even too long if you want pure honesty. What brings me here today?

All of this time has passed and what has gone on? Life. Life has happened from the last time I had something to say until now. It is sitting on my heart to realize that when you are wrong, you are wrong. When you are right, you are wrong. When nothing has occurred, you are still wrong. There is no proving this, there is no proving that. Why? Because wrong is wrong and there is nothing you can do about it.

I have reached a place where I will block, delete, remove, eliminate things and people that will get in my way. Now hold your horses, I would NEVER do anything violent to harm anyone or anything...if things feel pain. But, what I will do is delete numbers, remove them from my phone, and let my thumb gently graze that wonderful word..."BLOCK".

There is nothing worse than being on the verge of losing the best thing that has ever happened to you. It is almost as bad as standing at the edge of a cliff and waiting on the wind to blow, with hopes that you wont fall to your death. Fear kicks in, heart races, blood flows, adrenaline rushes, and you are standing on a toe at the edge of cliff not knowing what is to come. So, knowing how life has you literally on edge, what do you do about it? Do you stand there or back up to safety? If you keep walking, honestly, you're a idiot. Any smart person would know that you back up. You get back to safety.

Then there is the question..."What if I get pushed?"

My answer is cry for help, hope there is a safety net and repent for your wrongdoings because its almost guaranteed that falling from a cliff, you will surely die.

We shouldn't have to live our lives on edge so much. You only get one life. Do the right thing. Play it safe, stand on both feet on solid ground. LIVE.

Separating myself

I have gotten to the point where enough is truly enough. As I enter the new year of  2015, I know what the desires of my heart are. The more I think of these desires the more I feel that I may know what needs to be done. I am going to go through the separation period.

Wants, Desires, and the Shut Down

I can safely say that I am officially sick and tired at the way that men treat us women. Now, when we want to see them, they say that we can, but they be so quick to shut us down. Dont tell us that you can see us and then change your mind. That ish is NOT cool and not something that we enjoy. If you are booked and you busy then that is what you are.

Women desire to spend time with they man, they desire to be around him, take care of him, and be the reason he has a smile on his face. Men are now taking advantage of the fact that we love them so much and they are running off and acting like all is gravy. Ladies we need to have a talk with these men and let them know that they cannot do this to us.

I will be having my own little convo later.

What about us good girls...?

Some women focus on their careers, some women focus on their relationships, and other women like to focus on both. There comes a time when a woman would like to at least have an option. When I say option, I mean an option to be with someone. But what about those of us who don't have options. Those of us who have had our share of the bad boy, but are ready to meet someone who is something we have never experienced before. What about us?
There are so many girls who do so many things that aren't "right" and they get the guy they want. There are girls who put out, smash the homies, do jail time, and they get the good guy. There are girls who are successful, smart, intelligent, beautiful women, and they get the bad guy. But what about those of us who have no criminal record, come from a good family, have goals, have morals, promise to never cheat in our next relationship because we learned a big lesson from the last? Do we get a chance at love again? Do we get a chance to have an option?
I informed a friend mine that I was really into this one guy. He seemed like he had everything together. Like any other college student or college grad, he wasn't rich. He was very active in the community and had a great personality, but was back and forth. Clearly any man that is back and forth is just not that into you. But we as women like to "try" to get the man we want. Sometimes we succeed, but at other times we are just to much. But anyways, my friend told me that she has NEVER a day in her life had the issues with men that I have had. So clearly it must be me.
You can ask a man if you are the problem and any man with a heart is NOT going to say yes if he is concerned about hurting your feelings. When you look at it, when it has been three years or more, and everyone around you breaks up and find someone else and you are still sitting there waiting for your option, what else are you supposed to think? You aren't gonna think that you are just so awesome that any man wants you and your Mr. Right is gonna walk through the door. You are just setting yourself up for failure. Men have ran from me since day one. So maybe for those of us who have everything going for us, maybe women like me are supposed to be alone.
Dont get me wrong. I'm not saying I plan on being in a relationship in the immediate tomorrow...but the distant tomorrow is when I would like to have one. At this time, I'm just gonna have to get used to being alone.

Speak Up or Forever Hold Your Piece

People get approached all the time, but some of us are so picky that we don't realize when something with REAL potential is right in our face. We ignore it, stereotype it, and keep moving. But what would happen if we really gave that thing/person a chance?

Have you ever met someone and just felt like everything about them was real? Everything they did matched a picture in your mind? I have found that when something like this occurs you have to open your mouth the moment that you start feeling something that you would love to go somewhere. Yes you are putting yourself out there, but you have to be strong. So strong to the point where if you do get rejected, you are able to bounce back and know that it was not meant to be, and if it turns out to be, that moment was not the right time. You will miss out on the best thing that can ever walk into your life if you just ignore these feelings. If it doesn't work out don't think of it as wasted time, think of it as a lesson learned. Think of it as something to help you advance to the next part of your life.

If you aren't going to open your mouth and speak up for something you want, then you need to just be quiet. You can't beat yourself up about something that you didn't attempt. If you ever make it to that point, then its your fault. Now if you wait too long and that person moves on that's how the cookie crumbles. Never rush into anything, but be smart about everything.

For all you know it can be a blessing to prepare you for one better.

Love WILL make you Stupid

People fall in love all the time, and sometimes it happens so fast that when they realize it they either get greedy or they get scared. Allow me to expand on each.

You meet someone who is everything that you never would have thought you would recieve. If this person happens to be your "first love" or at least what you think is, you get greedy. You meet other people and start wondering if things could go up hill if you get with someone else. Maybe there is better out there right? Well allow me to be one of the first to tell you....WRONG. That is NOT ALWAYS the case. Everything that glitters aint gold.
SOMETIMES you may be lucky and end up with someone that is better, but in this day and time your chances of meeting someone that treats you right is slim to none.
Scared people feel all these emotions and they don't know how to handle them. They feel that things are moving to fast and they really cant control it. God forbid they lose control of their feelings. So now their heart is in it and they want to escape "the rush". Well, that causes them to leave and let go of that one person that they might ever have in their life that will actually treat them right.

Love will make you stupid.

Think about how many times people fall in love and all the crap they put up with. Stupid right? If you don't think so you might be in the situation and I can tell you right now the people looking at you are thinking you are pretty stupid. Other ways people become stupid is they leave people who are good for them; people that make them complete. I cant say I have ever done this because I have yet to meet someone that makes me feel this way, but I do have friends that explain these feelings of love to me. I have my own way of how I believe love should feel but thats another blog for another day.

I guess what I am really trying to say to you is, if you do find someone that is going to treat you right, then stick with them. It is hard to find someone that is going to want you for more than sex, respect your mind, dreams, and ambitions. Its a hard world out there. People these days can care less about behaving, so be smart in making decisions and don't waste your time on people who aren't willing to make sacrifices for you but expect you to make some for them. Double standards never loved anyone.

(Everything I have blogged is strictly opinion. I am not responsible for any bad decisions you may make in your life and I wish you the best of luck. Feel free to hit me up if you have any questions. Poeticdiva06@gmail.com )

Wont step up? Dont step Up

Im not sure if i have covered this topic before, but for those of you who do follow me on the regular and stay up to date with my blogs, one of my twitter followers pointed something out today. She tweeted, "Fellas, if you don't step up, somebody else will...the same goes for us, females, too" and "With that last tweet said...if you're not willing to step up for someone, please...do us a favor and don't step to that someone!"
I for one can say that I do agree with what she is saying. I am not about the games and I would love for someone to step their game up and show me that they are in fact different from the other guys who have tried to approach me. For example: I have tried guys who like and try to talk to but take me no where, guys who think I should be the one that calls them and they not call me, guys who dont care about whether I want to see them or not it will happen when they want it to. All of them need to step their game up. There are also the other guys that I have friends that have attempted such as the hit and run guy, the i like you but ima try to hook you up with my friend guy, and the i dont know what i want guy but i know that i want you. Again, all these guys need to step their game up.
This is MY personal opinion so if you dont like it feel free to voice your opinion. My feelings will not get hurt. But like I was saying, if a guy wants to talk to me then he really needs to step his game up. Dont be the type who doesnt take me out, doesnt desire or attempt to take me out and think that Im going to give you the time of day. If a person likes me, they have to show me they like me. They have to put in the effort that others have refused to put in. And on top of all that, they gotta show me that they arent trying to play me and arent trying to make me look stupid, because I can tell you right now, I dont have time for the games. I been there, done that, dealt with that with friends and have observed what others have gone through. Anyone thats on that I'll leave her for you crap, or that yeah we can go out but we been talkin for how long crap, or the come on let me hit before I get with you or before I marry you crap can keep it moving. We can be friends but to be with me you gotta step your game up. If a person approaching me isnt planning on trying to make themselves stand out from the rest, dont even waste your time to approach me because like most you will get turned down.
For those of you who dont understand the concept of stepping your game up allow me to explain it to you. If you are stepping your game up you are bringing your game up to the next level. You have to make yourself stand out from all the others that are trying to talk to that person. You have to put in the effort and NOT slack off back into your old ways, which would be stepping your game down. The moment you do, like my follower said, someone else will come in and take over what you supposidly worked so hard to get. You will lose. So what do you prefer, to step ya game up and get the person you want, or to get them, be on the bull and lose them because you were slacking?
Someone once told me that once you can get into someone's head and have them thinking about you on a regular, you are in there. You actually have a chance, but I hope I got my message across, cause I personally feel that everything i said is something to think about.